De-coupling
And also shifting from active to passive
Allowing for the contradiction of activity
And passive
Receiving
Repercussion of alteration
What is recreation?
What if I tense exactly where the moment previously I let go?
A different beast
Alteration is vanishing
Recreating an impossibility
Allowing tension and enjoying tension
And then
Letting Go
Alteration can create a kind of longing
Liberating
I am very clearly doing this
Is the space changing?
How is the space changing?
Altering my experience with every recreation
Becoming more detailed
Involuntary Movement
And
Voluntary Movement
Busy with precision
At the same time to breathe into the leg
Drifting
Recreating focus
Recovering focus
Back on safer territory
Procedures become familiar
Having come from
Having been birthed by
Doing without holding
Forgetting why I should need tension
Recognizing this form as its own
Recreate the form and imagine my hands
Alteration is a gradual and continuously shifting process
It’s a concrete puzzle
An impossibility
Recreating an unknown Which sensation?
What’s the connect---
How does
How does the Manipulation connect to the rest of the body?
How am I connecting?
Do I need to?
Is that a false model?
Can I use the floor?
Can the floor give me a series?
What role do the hands play here?
How can the floor that supports my arms
Stimulate my legs?
How the sensations organized?
Does---
Are they framing each other?
Are they intermixing chaotically?
Am I grounding through a particular sensation?
Suddenly have a lot of options
Because so much of my body touches the floor
There’s intimate space between the body and the floor
This membrane
Can give the Manipulations
Can be the Manipulations
Multiple points of entry
Of leverage
The Manipulations are a series of circles shaped by the floor and bones
There is a clear logic here
Circles on bones
Orbits
There is pleasure housed within an imaginary structure
All gestures are
Grounded in the floor
Which sensation do I lead with here?
The honey-trap asks me the question if the
The floor can pull me into it
Do you ride the pleasure
Or is the pleasure housed?
Do I do it
Or does it?
In the end you only have the ground to answer to
Practice as object
My body and the practice speak to one another
Without going through me
How can more of the floor give me this?
Am I doing this?
All attempts answer to the floor
Then who is talking?
The floor holds me in many ways
Self
Body
Practice
How much self do you put back into it?
It’s like density
It’s modulation of density
Our self is just a matter of densities
Density of self
Density of practice
Density of body
They loosen up a bit
They mesh together
Compression
Expansion
Res extensa
Quantum melding
I feel like I’m part of the floor now
Every touch is a deflection
Is a joining
Where am I?
Weight
Direction
Precision
How much does it need?
Giving and receiving
Is it still the self that enacts perception?
Who is enacted?
What is enacted?
Who enacts the recreation?
Where to give less and where to give more?
To give over
When is the giving
Becoming perceived as something enforced?
Allowing the self to get in touch
‘Honey trap’ is everywhere
The trap of the self
See myself
Disowned
To give up
To give over
To give away
To give in
To surrender
Going with variation
The self is retreating
To the place of observation
It’s there in the memory
And it’s there in imagination
Do I do it or does it?
The self is recreating its own disappearance
The paradox is that the self is on retreat and at the same time it expands into the space
Back on safer territory
Dressed as the other
Where am I?
Verschiebung
Alteration is a gradual and continuously shifting process
It’s a concrete puzzle
No original practice
No original self
Then who is talking?