"No no no no no no no no no no.
I wish I could just quit.
I don´t want to do this.
I mean I want. But I don´t. I can´t.
I mean I can, I think. But I can´t. I am tired. I can´t focus.
Please coffee, don´t make me paranoid. I want to quit. Shit. You can´t say I have to quit!
Sleep, let´s just sleep.
My head. Too many stuff. Things. Issues. My phone. Connection, distraction, connection distraction distraction distraction,
escape!, let´s get outta here.
I need to quit. let´s go. Just go, go!
I can not deal with this.
Full, stuff.
I am so dissapointed in myself.
My brain cannot think straight, neither crooked.
I wish I could do better,
how have I now magically turned into the worst version of myself?
Quit. I am so stressed. Sleep! Wake up! What?
My body screams help. Nobody is listening. But it is so loud. Au! Don´t hurt me.
Full, stop, focus, breathe, calm, no.
Fuck it.”
-An expression of stress
Elisabeth Lambeck 2023
For Research Report : PRESS THE CLOWNS NOSE, or alternatively, THE RED BUTTON TO FIGHT, FLIGHT, FREEZE and FAWN
MANIFEST FOR LAUGHTER
This wall is about vulnerability and laughter
This wall is about pain
This wall is about laughing through pain
Together
Not alone
This wall is fake
This wall is funny
This wall is a hole but a bridge
This wall is real
This wall is about just another brick in the wall
When was the last time you smiled like this?
Why?
What kind of feelings surface in you when watching these horizontal smiles?
Did you know that the Haha wall is a real name for a type of sunken fence that was commonly used in in the 18th century, allowing the viewers to enjoy the beautiful undisrupted landscape, the illusion of an unbroken, continuous panoramic sight, whilst providing boundaries for grazing livestock.
This wall is the grazing livestock trying to find a master plan to get themselves out of this hole, to the other side?
This is not like the Mexican wall,
This wall is inviting
Maybe like the Chinese wall, today, you can walk on top of it
This wall reminds me of how stressful I find this overambitious capitalistic thing that is called western privileged life
This wall reminds me that I am a mother of two children, and I have spent the last four years feeling guilty while distantiating myself from them while working and studying, ambitioning, building,
This wall
This wall is privileged
This wall is western
This wall is waving at you
Yes, this wall is ironic
But this wall is free to speak,
This wall is refusing to `shut up´
This wall is courageous
This wall is encouraging you to urgently
Watch out, for the HaHa walls in your beautiful landscape
Don´t be afraid to jump in,
And position your critical laughter, straight on top of that
As your biggest armor
This wall is a bit bitter
Like a tragicomedy
Like Charlie Chaplin said:
"Life is a tragedy when seen up-close, but a comedy in long shot"
This wall doesn´t have a door
This wall needs to be broken
This wall is searching for a punch line